Good day today. Went to 2 beaches this time, and enjoyed my own company at one of them.

I thought deeply about my future. I need to forgive those in my past. That does not mean becoming cozy with them, or trying to rekindle these relationships, but rather just choosing to understand why they did these things, and choosing myself over obsessing over my past and hate.

Then, focusing on myself. My Goals, my character.

That is something I must also spend more time on. How does my ideal person act? How does he spend his time? In social situations what is he like?

I also did something I was scared of, though it may have been because I was tired. I went up to a cafe and asked if they were interested in a website.

They rejected me, but I am proud of myself. I did something that I was really scared of.

I realise now, I have nothing to lose, and everything to gain.

Tomorrow, I will focus on making an example portfolio for businesses to view.

On the point of approval and validation from women, my parents and friends, I need to realise that none of it is mine.

Right now I am still acting cold towards others, because they love other people more than me. They choose to spend time with others over me… This I cannot change. I must remember to be happy for them, and then accept the hurt, and move forward, move towards achieving my goals.

I also have a new system for my blogs for which I will create a seperate page which explains it all.